Sure, you probably just thought “what does she have to write about a car that is anything substantial?” Thank you for taking a leap of faith and reading anyways, I’ll promise you there is something meaningful (to me at least) in this post.
So I did get a new car, a black G6. I am pretty darn thankful that I was able to receive this, it is definitely a step up from the swagger wagon (’97 Plymouth Voyager Mini Van) that I have been driving the past three years. The swagger wagon does have a part of my heart and always will, I still don’t really feel like the G6 is “me” yet, but that will come in time. To get to the point of this post I’m just going say it: driving my new car, I haven’t felt as close to God in a long time. Silly? maybe…pathetic? well, to me it is both of those things to an extent but also a BLESSING. I have been traveling the mid west with my Camp Team this summer loving on kids and showing them how cool you turn out to be when you go to Anderson University 
but really, I’ve been a camp counselor all summer and it has been one of THE most tiring jobs in every aspect of my life. Most of all, tiring spiritually. It was the last thing I was expecting. I was ready in early June to be on such a spiritual high all summer…boy was I wrong. Instead, it has been challenging, frustrating and numbing. The constant worship and sitting in services just brought me to this place of routine. I personally don’t believe that any relationship should be a routine, especially one with God. It wasn’t the camps fault, it was my own. Coming to that conclusion early on didn’t seem to help me much down the road, it just made me feel worse for not making time for the only one who could get me out of this. So, at this time of finally being done with camp, re-fueling in every aspect of my life, I have still struggled to be out of this dry season. I have had many fruitful conversations and sat in wonderful services, but it just hadn’t gotten me anywhere yet. But you know what has? my G6. Finally being able to listen to music at a volume that can be heard above my AC, I get to enjoy my music while I drive. More importantly, worship music. It is nice being able to drive down the road while looking at the beautiful scenery and be able to hear and sing along with Klove, Hillsong, Alanna Story, etc. whatever I end up choosing. I have begun to notice that some of my most genuine worship takes place while I’m driving. It has been something that is encouraging as I get out of the desert I’m stuck in. Sure my eye’s aren’t closed, but you don’t have to close your eye’s to let God know how much you appreciate Him. This is something that has become evident to me within the last few days and I wanted to share. I’m not much of a blogger (as you can tell if you see the date of my last post), I’m in the “insecure blogger” stage. So, with that said, I will take comments, they are appreciated. It is always nice having feedback. I hope reading this has been beneficial to you, I hope you can think of where you feel your worship is most genuine, and maybe the last time it was that you pulled out a worship CD while you were driving or when you had your local christian radio station playing. I have benefited from both and I hope you can to.
I think you articulated that very well. I feel that way when I’m running, particularly if I’m not listening to music, but paying attention to the creation around me. It is hard not to look up at the big sky and feel so small, yet remember that I am known and loved. So I totally get what you’re saying about worshiping in unexpected places, unexpected ways.
That was so well written Jess! I think you are so right when we get into the routine of camps we aren’t really focused on God as much as the “routine” of things while we are there. I know that while I am at camp being a counselor I can get so wrapped up in making sure the kids are focused, that I am not making sure I am focused and ready to worship as well. For me, I think the best time for me to feel focused on worshipping is in my car (without anyone with me), when I am running and listening to christian songs on my ipod, and when I am alone in my room for some quiet time! I loved reading your post and it really made me think about how I could have been a little more focused in the right ways. I did enjoy the one on one conversations with kids and counselors, the worship, the free time, etc. but I guess I too forget sometimes to really seriously be worshipping God with my whole heart instead of doing it routinely. Thanks for sharing! I am so happy I met you this summer, you are so sweet and so fun and I can tell you have such a big heart for everything!