During most of high school I always had a devotional. Unfortunately, I have not been able to find one that I really connect with and really enjoy doing. I know that there are so many out there, I even have one at home, but I just could not seem to get anything out of it. I seem to think it doesn’t have to do with the book anymore, but probably my focus on my time with God. Therefore, that devotion will be picked up next time I am home! Anyways, BECAUSE I do not have a devotion book at the moment, I flip the bible open randomly and pray that God will lead me to the right passage to read. He of course, does. I opened my bible to Psalms 100 last night and just began reading. Psalms is one of my favorite books. Something about all the different emotions put into one book leaves me so comforted. I ended up reading Psalms 100-104 last night and Psalms 102 really stuck out to me, I will share a bit that really hit me…
“24 So I said: “Do not take me away, O my God, in the midst of my days; your years go on through all generations. 25 In the beginning you laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands. 26 They will perish, but you remain; they will all wear out like a garment. Like clothing you will change them and they will be discarded. 27 But you remain the same, and your years will never end. 28 The children of your servants will live in your presence; their descendants will be established before you.”
Psalms 102 is explained as…”A prayer of an afflicted man, when he is faint and pours out his lament before the Lord.” The beginning of the prayer begins with him crying and begging for God to listen to him and answer his prayers. He then leads on to start talking about the struggles of his days and what he has turned into. When I started reading I was thinking “goodness, how depressing, why would I want to sleep with THIS on my mind??” but I was too quick to think. The man starts talking about God and how he will provide and how he is stable, he begins to find hope…(The entire psalm is pretty lengthy, so I would encourage you to read the whole thing at some point to get the whole effect of the mans prayer.) Right now, in my life, hope is something that is evident. Beyond the struggles I have been facing recently, God just hasn’t let me down. It is most definitely a great feeling to know that no matter what doubts I start to face at the beginning of my day or what I begin to think about too much, he provides an intervention, someone or something to show up to change my ways of thinking. Not to say that I do not still have things that linger in the back of my head, certain doubts and struggles, but I have something to hold onto, to rely on. I am having to rely on other things around me rather than Facebook, twitter etc. to fulfill certain needs or fulfill time. The world will never give you what you need, nor the people in it. I guess to wrap up this post, God will bring you through things, no need to lose hope, he is the ultimate provider, the forever stable thing in your life, the one who will NE VER let you down. soak it in…
“Still I know it’s like pulling teeth
To try and convince me
That Your mercy can be bigger than what I deserve
I guess I’m just afraid to go head first
Into such a wave, drowning in wonder and peace
Knowing that it will never make sense
That I am loved by You, really loved by You
Unchangeable, unconquerable
Immovable, irremovable
Unwavering, untiring
Unflinching, stubborn love of God” <3
“Tell Me” Bethany Dillon
ps. I’m on a Bethany Dillon kick…just.can’t.get.enough.!
